Writing

I

Surrounded by Evils of people
pride, power, greed.
Surrounded by insecurities of people
worthlessness, lonliness, uncertainty.
All acted upon results in pain
so much pain,
pain,
pain,
the pain starts at the core
strikes out to the limbs
making them limp
pain that rushes to the eyes
in waves
the spirit is grieved
and i am sick to my stomack
will the pain stop?
I know the cure,
the relief,
it is charity, it is peace,
but it is no where to
be found today
today is the day of
earthly evil and
fleshy insecurities
today I must live in pain.

II

Lost, alone. No purpose, direction, or companion.
I’ve been stuck here too long
My ears can’t hear the cries of my spirit.
I am dead.
Will my spirit be resurrected?
How much longer must I wait?
I hate wasting time!
I’m young, wasting my youth away.
By the time I get it together, it will be time to leave.
Yearning to grow, learn, explore, create, share, love, live, teach, help, care…
What is stopping me?
I’m a wreck.
I want to calm down, tend to my spirit, but also to go full speed.
And You, You seem more distant than ever.
Losing my innocence made me run from You.
I didn’t know what was happening, I just ran.
The blame can be placed on carelessness of others.
But I need to find my way.
I need to tend to my spirit.
I need life.

III
Tunnel

Stumbling along a dark tunnel,
my path is hidden from me.
I am not alone, I have many companions,
Fear and Uncertainty are the most frequent,
but I only desire to walk with You.
On my journey I hear many voices.
Voices that hurt with words that sting,
promised filled voices breaking my heart with the
best of intentions,
there are voices of pleasure calling my name, but I
do not want to answer.
The only voice I want to heed to is Yours.
The tunnel leads me to different places,
I do not know where I am going.
The tunnel refuses to reveal itself to me,
but now it has led me to a new land,
full of new voices.
I need Your words to give me light and direction.
Send my usual companions away,
and journey with me in confident love!