An update on life

Posted by alicia on Aug 19, 2008 in Life |

I was giving a friend an update on everything going on in life lately and he responded by saying, “When it rains…”

He is right. It is pouring right now.

On Friday evening Dan’s grandmother, Nanny passed away. From the moment I met her Nanny accepted me into the family and always greeted me with a hug and a kiss. Her hands were always busy doing something to care for a family member. Now I’m getting to hear stories from her hometown of how she was a friend to many. What she accomplished in her life and the legacy she leaves behind is astonishing.

Here is a slideshow my father-in-law put together remembering Nanny.

Yesterday my mom, sister & I went to court for a hearing regarding the settlement over Jarrett’s death. The already stressful event had potential to be even more stressful. There was a possibility my dad would show up and we would have to testify about how he was never a father to Jarrett. It’s been really hard for me to “deal” with all of this. It’s the two greatest pains of my life converging together. Luckily things went as well as to be expected yesterday – my dad didn’t show and we didn’t have to testify. Now we only have one more hurdle to jump over before all of this stuff will be over with. Then maybe I can focus on healing and remember Jarrett.

I can’t describe exactly how I’m feeling now, other than it feels like stress and fear. Last night as I went to bed I took a moment to examine how I was feeling physically – exhausted, sick to my stomach, headache, lightheaded and my heart was beating fast and hard. I slept hard, and even overslept. Today has been a bit better, but I’m really just wanting the weekend to get here so I can feel like I have time to rest.

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1 Comment

Dianne Bowles Gautier
Aug 20, 2008 at 8:27 am

Bless your alls hearts! I know you, Fawn,Tracey & Nancy have been put through it. My thoughts still go out to your family and I too remember Jarrett in such a fond way. He was truly a blessing to be around and have in our lives. His legacy will live on for many,many years! Glad you didn’t have to encounter facing everything with your dad. Maybe things will finally be settled soon so you ALL can move forward instead of being in neutral.


 

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